Not working for the weekend
I made it known on LinkedIn that I’m looking for work. This week could be called The Humbling.
How do you do this day in and day out without losing all hope? Without burning yourself out completely? Without feeling guilt for every moment you are not searching and applying? Then you get to go back to work and do it for money, which is better than for free.
I just saw someone post that he applied to over 250 jobs before getting a yes. How do I prepare for that? How do I keep on keeping on in the face of this? And isn’t war supposed to do more than spike our gas prices, which definitely spiked? Isn’t it supposed to jump start the economy? That’s what my wise ninth grade U.S. HIStory teacher told me. But it’s a different game now. It’s not even about that. It’s about the wealth accumulation of a few, not the rest of us. How can anyone trust anything coming from the leaders of this country, regardless of party affiliation?
It’s a beautiful day here, weather-wise. kinda sunny and over 70 degrees. On Monday, I nearly feel down the icy porch stairs after we got a few inches of snow overnight. Today I wanted to sit outside and read. I did not. See above.
Today I wrote something I’m quite proud of for PopMatters. I spent much of the morning typing while choking back tears about one of the best records I’ve ever heard, one that touches me so deeply. I hope to look Jeremy Bolm in the eye one day and say thanks. It will likely publish next week. I encourage you to read what I’m up to for them. If I could get paid to do what I do over there, I’d do that instead. It feeds my soul. Design feeds my belly, which is not nothing, but not fulfilling. So few of us get to do what we love. I don’t even feel like I’m worthy of being included in that part of the Venn diagram. I must grind it out like the rest of us (not currently) working stiffs.
On the topic of music, the new Bitter Branches record dropped today and it is in conversation with your discontent. RIYL noise, metal, or both. Featuring members of Deadguy and Lifetime, so you know it’s great.
I just got a personalized email, saying that the owner of the company is “very interested in me” for an Adoption Social Worker job. I am not a social worker. I do not know the adoption world. I literally have nothing to offer this job but an open heart. I need this type of plea from someone looking for a Learning Manager.